It has been a long time since my last post on this site. I have been writing, though. I started another blog called Looking Glass Stories for a digital storytelling course I’m taking from Empire State College. It’s one of the last few course I have to take before I’m officially (and FINALLY) a college graduate. But as a senior, I am struck by the similarities I have with my Chinese friends who are in their last year in college. Though they are nearly 20 years my junior, we are all faced with “what’s next?” I have the benefit of momentum from my current life…a job, a family, a sense of my purpose as a writer. But so much has changed since I started my college education (when these guys were just new babes) that I have a tremendous vista of possibilities open to me, and I am finding it just as overwhelming as they are.
I have decided to make these next eight months before I graduate a workshop in life planning. I turn forty (holy cow, did I just write that for public consumption?!) in January, and I figure I have at least another forty years left. So what am I going to do with the next half of my life?
Well, first of all, I’m going to figure out how to celebrate this ominous birthday. Why the heck does it have such an effect on the female psyche? Turning thirty was fabulous. I felt powerful, sexy, in charge of my life, balanced. I think about fifty as an age of acceptance, of solidity and grounding and perhaps even true mastery. Why is forty so terrifying? I’d love to hear what others think about this.
But as I said, the next eight months is about pulling all the pieces of my life together into a package that will propel me to that sense of mastery. I am a storyteller, a performer, an emerging (to myself) artist. I have skills and abilities that, for the first time in history, actually make sense together. I understand project management, web design principles, publication production processes and business processes. I have talent in singing, acting and storytelling. I have experience in writing, teaching and administration. I have education in and passion for maternal and child health, community development and education. So I know all these things make sense together somehow. The next eight months is about figure out exactly how that is…
I’ll be seeking out mentors, looking at graduate programs, investigating developments in the new media and communications fields. Whenever I see someone’s work, and think to myself “I wanna be just like them when I grow up,” I’m going to consciously analyze what it is about them that I admire, and cultivate those things in my life and character. And maybe, just maybe, all those pieces of my life will come together. But even if they don’t all fit perfectly, it’s going to be a great journey!